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Wednesday, 11 May 2016

drown in peaceful.

there is a side of Youtube that i love very much
it very sad yet very beautiful
it make yourself calm
once you in i think ,you will be trapped in there
its like you are drowning in sadness
if you are a melancholy person you will love it very much and also hate it
(for being always sad,its very dangerous)

i love going to this side
when the world doesn't go as i planned
when the world try to bring me down
when i feel like don't have friend by my side
when i just want to drown myself in blue.

the song its perfect for that kind of thing
and the picture mostly represent about depressed and messy life.
and i wanna show you what currently i love to hear,here it is ,enjoy.

you are welcome.

Monday, 8 February 2016


Here comes the last semester of my college life, the 8th semester. Well I’m so not ready for this ,2016 is full of fighting especially this semester. I must finish my final project + prepared my after graduate programmed things (It still secret, please please just wish me luck). I’m so nervous, I mean like this semester is totally a big thing and I only have one shot, so I must do it fucking great.

But we have to enjoy something while it lasts, right? I couldn’t imagine in a couple of month or maybe year maybe i cannot see the people I usually see today. But yeah life must go on, just enjoy, living in the moment and keep on track.

Actually I want to cite a quote about life but I forget the word exactly I see it on my line timeline, but the point of the quote is life is going to happen like what you think it would, in a subconscious way.

I still remember to the days that I pray for wanted a happy life, it was when I’m in high school. A simple happy life like in how I met your mother my favorite TV series. And now after several years, I feel like I’m half way of it.  A lovely family check, a bunch of charming good friends check and a lover check. The only things I should obtain next is graduate and find a good sustainable career. 

But then I realized,

Life is more than that, more than just happy. It should be a meaningful too. I’m picturing andi taufan or ridwan kamil or the ceo of gojek or anyone who make this world a little bit better.  So today wherever I pray, I pray for a meaningful and joyful life.

Wednesday, 28 October 2015

o human.

i do not understand with people,with human.
why they are so selfish and greedy?
well not all people like that.
but most of people i see lyke that.
i have been living for 21 years.

i see conflict.
a conflict between 2 country.
fighting for oil or another natural resources.
so they can have more money.
to buy gun and invade another country.

i see conflict between human too.
fighting for power.
so they can control to the things that mostly related to money.
more money,
more things he can buy,
to impress people.

i feel,
there is some people out there that more happy if some people live in poverty.
and others live with glitters and gold.

don't you think our human life is so freaking miserable.

why,why sometimes the poor people gives more than the rich?
is it because they are more know and understand?
how it feels to starve all day?
how it feels to be homeless?
how it feels to have nothing but faith?
if it yes,maybe all peoples should feel how it feels to be poor first before they become rich.

every people should learn,
how it feels to have nothing but faith.

but of course we do not have to be poor to care to others.
if only we are more compassionate to others.
if only we use more heart.
if only we give a little love to everything.
if only....................

and the last,here is a song that describe current mood.

Friday, 18 September 2015

true colours

Imagine a place where you could let it all go. 
Strip your cover. 
Strip the walls you've built for protection, Strip the ones you built from yourself. 
Strip the realities you've created in your mind. 
Strip the things people have told you, the things you've told yourself. 
Who's left standing? 
Is it someone who knows themself through and through? 
And lives it every day? Authentic. 

A lot of us don't live authentic lives.
We build and build, covering ourselves with false pretenses and false truths.
You can hide from a lot. 
You can hide so much that one day you look in the mirror and forget how you got there. 
How you created the person staring back at you. 
So angry. 
So fake. 
So alone. 
Surrounded by reasons to be angry,
lies you've told yourself you needed,
and people who've never inspired you.
A lot of people never look to see the realness in the people around them.
It's probably because they're busy doing the same thing.
We get caught up proving to the world, 
proving to ourselves,
that we've got it all figured out and don't need anyone's help doing so. 
Everyone's just in the way.
Often times I'm told I shouldn't have done this, or that.
I find that humorous.
If they only knew.

My joy comes from sharing. 
My joy comes from listening.
It comes from creating. 
Creating myself and those around me. 
From doing. 
From -being-. 
My joy comes from my true self. 
My joy comes from loving. 
And in return, the world is blessing me. 
Life is.

It's not a race and I'm no better than the stranger beside me. 
But I have something a lot of others don't. It's myself. It's faith. 
It's a peace that I know many search for in a lot of the wrong places. 
I did that too. 
But I listened to the realness inside. 
I listened to that longing for something more, something greater. 
Far beyond bank accounts, new toys, drunken nights and instant hook ups. 
Maybe when you're tired of it too, you'll pay more attention to what's going on on your inside too.
And maybe then you'll see that we're not that different.


Tuesday, 6 January 2015


have you ever feel like when someone that you think will never hurt you,but they hurt you? as a matter of fact you are already being nice.well it can be your family,loved one,close friends or someone that you already feel comfortable. i feel that much often,at first i it was disappointing me.but then time after time,maybe it was Allah ways to tell you that you should not love or adore people that much.